Song Lyrics of the day (Zoe Jane)

Have you ever just wanted to find a song from you to your daughter or your son.. well my husband has done just that hes found a song to our daughter from him, while my hunsband is deployed, the song is called (Zoe Jane) by Staind we are still looking for a song to our son.


well i want you to notice
to notice when im not around
i know your eyes see right through me
and speak with out a sound

chorus

i want to hold you,
protect you from all
the things iv already endured
i want to show you so you
all the things life has in store
for you
ill always love you
the way a father
should love his daughter
when i walked out this morning i cried
as i walk to the door cried
about how long id be away for
i cried about leaving you alone

chorus

sweet zoe jane (x2)

so i wanted to say this
cuz i wouldnt know where to begin
to explain to you what iv been through
to explain where your daddys been

chorus

sweet zoe jane (x2)

the first time i heard this song my husband emailed me the youtube link so i could hear it. it made me cry, it was a sweet song..

The Triple Whammy

well there are many of us who have to get dental work, well today that was me. I has to get a root canal and a temp. filling.. and just my luck that my son had a fever and a tummy ache then to top it all off my daughter had the runs all day and now she has a painful diaper rash.. But thank god my mother helped me out by watching the kids while i was at the dentist and had made me some kimchee jigae (a korean soup) cause im not aloud to eat hard foods for a week or so... well the kids and i hung out at my moms for a couple hours, so all of us could rest and take a nap.. as the momma i am we left my mothers and i went to the store to pick up some motrin, pedialite for my kids and ibuprofen for me.. well after the medicine and the pedialite my son and daughter started to feel better, but lets hope my daughter doesnt have the rash or the runs in the morning..

what an evening

Well today has been a lazy day for the kids and i. we played and watch tv all morning and part of the afternoon.. it then became nap time for the kids and i had my little bit of quiet time.. well i happen to fall asleep as well maybe my nights of insomnia are catching up to me cause i slept till about 615pm.. thats crazy a 3 hour nap.. i wont be sleeping tonight and if do get sleep that will be so amazing. I am surprised my kids are still sleeping, its time to wake them up... and make dinner... but i plane for a loud crazy kids night of playing.. for mysweet kids.. ill be sure to write more later

Past, and Present

I know its been a while a long while since my last post. Ten months if i really wanna get technical.. ha.
Alot of things have changed, i myself has had to learn new things about my self.. Because in my last posts i was a pretty angry person and had personal issues, that my husband did not understand why i was being the way i was.. well i can say i am trying to be more paitent w/ my kids and they grow and learn i learn w/ them.. Being a stay at home mom has been hard for me, since it it a total different way of life then what i was use to.. But i can say i am blessed for my husband since he works for us so i can be home with our kids.. Going from an AIRFORCE BRAT to enlisting in to the ARMY to spite my father and the becoming an AIRFORCE SPOUSE has been a long bumpy road but its still a hell of a journey.. Well after last winter, and all winter sports on base were coming to an end, and geting ready for the spring summer sports.. the most competitive sport for my husband was and still is SOTFBALL.. and well iv never been good at making friends but i will say this past softball season was the best ever.. I had met other spouses of the husbands that play softball for McChords 62nd amxs airforce squadron.. Its easier to make friend when they have kids close to the age of your kids or just kids in general.. i will be the first mone to say THANK GOD for softball and i wont say it again.. i have made better friends that i know i will have for a long time.. Like my "Cookies" and the crumbs.. my 3 browns.. and the list could go on.. i love them.. even thou i know being in a miliraty family you never know where you will end up and who you will meet but at the end of the day you know that you will meet more people who are just like you.. trying to make friends and play dates.. and if and when you move you have friends to keep in touch with..

Better day

better afternoon, feeling better about somethings, talked to my big brother and i needed that.. well ill write more as my night progresses, im talking to my husband gosh i miss him so much to..

wtf really

Ok so here starts my rant for the day. who spends like 110 dollars on eating out fast food and bars and actuall restraunts and some things for the baby when your tight on money and your on a vacation, while the other half of your family has nothing really to eat, and has been pretty much living off of mac n cheese, rice, hot dogs. oh and mcds once. .. as the mommy ill try to go with out eating a meal or two,so i can feed my son, since my son eating is more important.. i have never felt like my son and i mean nothing to a certain person ever in my life... im not going to lie i did spend a little bit of money on a couple of christmas gifts for my children and a pair of shoes for me and mcds and taco johns once which i had spent 49 dollars. Iv had to borrow little bits of money from my mother so i can buy cheap food to eat, or put some gas in our vehicle.. well now we only have enough money for my husband to fly home cause he needs to pay for his luggage and then well have maybe 20 dollars to last us to next pay day and that prolly wont happen cause i need to pust some kind of gas in our durango so i can pick my husband and daughter up from the airport sunday night well maybe their flight got canceled again so who knows when ill see my daughter and husband again. I just hope hell be home for christmas. This stupid storm on the east coast is making it harder for me to be calm and not so emotional... like a really good friend said bah hum bug. if it wasnt for my son loving the lights and the decorations that everyone has out for christmas i prolly wouldnt care.. things are tight and i feel like im starting to loose myself in all of my emotions and feelings. i dont know if i need help from a dr. or what but like i said im loosing myself and i cant do that to my kids they are my everything without them i would die. god please hear my plea../ prayer.. please help me get through this and let me find my way and the ability to be strong...

Stupid Snow Storms

As if today couldnt get any worse my husband calls and tells me his flight was canceled, cause of a snow storm hitting dc really hard right now.. and since he had a lay over in dc they canceled it... so now i wont see my daughter or husnad till sunday night.. can this trip go any worse.. im already not in a good place in my mind or emotionally.. I just need my daughter home and my husband home so him and i can talk cause if dont get things settled i dont know how things will go..